New Year, New Horizons to fuck up

I need to post more often, if for no other reason than to get used to it. Here are my thoughts on what I want to do different this year.

Goals

I have life goals I need to take care of, before the act of not taking care of them kills me. I am pretty well-off, but there are some problems you can't just throw money at to make go away.

1. Move out.

I need to get out of this apartment. It is too small, too out of the way, and is actively stifling me from doing anything. It is just a ball of COVID trauma here and I need get out. I also suspect that it is actively pumping something in the air...

Complicating matters is I don't know where I should go. Illinois is expensive, but Missouri is going to be spiritually expensive, due to its habit of passing laws that hurt me and mine. This does put me closer to family, which I would rather not. Hmmm.

2. Consume more.

I want to watch movies. I want to read books. I want to explore the library. I want to read my friends' works when they publish them. I want to finish the comic series I was enjoying before I got into a depressive spiral.

3. Make more junk.

I need to stop getting to precious with what I make. I need to make things, show it to people, and move on. I need to work things through my system because these ideas are going to kill me.

4. Do gardening again.

Needs to happen after moving, but it's on there for a reason.

5. Upgrade this website

What I have here is a good start, but I could improve it to be better, easier on the eyes, and with an actual domain. Also, I should probably do what it takes so it shows up on google at all since I'm actively disallowing crawlers at time of writing.

The other bit to this is I want to archive my digital works, along with my worldbuilding and comics. I'll need to remember how to do custom Vue again but it should be a fun trip down memory lane.

Events

1. Halfbox

I want to finish a bigger Zine, and to wit I've been making strides towards the research I need done. Now I just need an angle for what I want to say and I think I have that, I just need to commit. I'm with a bunch of people who are cool and will keep me honest, so we'll see how that goes.

2. Train

I want to take the train that runs from Chicago to San Francisco. I want to go somewhere while there are still places to go.

3. Cabin

I usually go to a cabin in October but 2024 did not give that chance. I think I will force it to happen this year, if I don't do...

4. Pinball Expo

Also in October, this is a convention of pinball enthusiast gawking at and playing pinball games. I wanna go.

5. Lancer

I have been threatening this fucking LANCER game for years plural and I need to just buck up and write it down.

6. Zine exchange

St Louis does not have a Zine exchange, I want to fix that.

The Year 2025

I want to write and think more, and part of that is I need to get practiced at it. So, here we are, fifteen days in, trying to keep that promise to myself. I must do better than I did in 2024, or things are going to get bleak a lot sooner than history projects us to be. I am not a perfect person, not even close, but I want to be better, and being better than 2024 should be very achievable.

I also resolve to give myself some goddamn credit. I did a lot last year, but I can't remember any of it. That is a large part of why this website exists, a record to myself as much as anyone of things I did, from my own fingers. Webform just happens to be convenient.

Until next time, this has been Mr. Black.